hi dudes and dudets how is everyone its been a long time since i last posted anything.....
im ok i surpose nothing much is going on in my life exept my faith has realy slipped into extinction i started colledge a couple of weks ago it is realy cool i have made no friends there but i didnt go there to make friends i am going to learn something i never did at school i wish i did cause that means i would be doing my gcse's soon but anyway back to the point about my faith i have been thinking alot about god and if he exists every one i talk to about it tells me not to be silly that he does exist but that dosnt help cause they dont explain or help me understand im not saying i dont belive im just saying i dont feel like he has or is doing anything for me nothing good hardly happens everything what happens always involves lads or drungs there my main distractions any one who reads this and thinks they can help me understan please post a comment it would realy help i dont want to loose my faith forever g2g write soon xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

hi its been a long time since the last time i wrote a blog no one reads them any way ...........................................for the past couple of weeks my faith has been slipping and iv been messing my self up a lot making decisions to make others happy and me more sad and depressed lost my close friends have made a lot of enemys i want to put things right but how? iv lost my trust with my family friends even my church i want to follow god be a true christian but i am not strong enough please some one help me help me to understand what gods saying ............................i am sorry to all the people i have hurt in the past month and a half i hope you can all forgive me and if bobby reads this i am mostly sorry to you i dont understand what i have done but please accept my apoligy anyway got to go love you all ....................................................................!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!?????????!!!!!!!!!!

hi havent wrote on me blog in ages been distracted 4 a bit feel like gods left me but i know he hasnt had a good chat 2 bobbie lastnite whilst walking back from whitestone i was realy surprised i was talking bout god and half the stuff i came out with i didnt realise how much i know and bobbie kept saying i have a lot of knoledge yayyyyy g2g dont know how long it will be till my next blog lovings

hey dudes its been a long time.

For the past couple of weeks i have felt great that god was moving in my life i have accepted people as they have accepted me but 3 days ago i met up with some old friends and went back to being my old self drinking and other stuff i dont want to get in to i know its wrong.i know its temptation but in a way i dont care i know i should but why beacuse its just gonna happen over and over again im not strong enough ....................... even though i just said all that i would love my life to be better than what it is maybe one day i will be strong enough anyways g2g in a peace mwah dont read this i am being silly

Its been a long since i wrote a blog i doubt anyone reads them but oh well its someting to do i went on a walk with promise on christmas day it was so amazing to see all the mountains and the scencery i started to think about a lot of things like my relationship with god and my obsession with lads but mostly about god.I had nice little chat with god i know he was listening.And i have realised that i dont need lads to feel loved because god will always be there for me. Anyway shame i carnt go on saturday(gordon and deeeee said) i think i would enjoy it but oh well maybe next time if im still in the church.I think i might stay i dont know if i want to be part of promise anymore i would lke to go to whitestone but know one likes me tthere because they think im a bad influence on bobby and so on........but there we go thats ppl for me i wish everyone would give me a second chance to prove i can be a good person anyways in a peace mwahh bye bye

hi everyone why do bad things happen to me its like i have to give everythink up i dont wanna any way as i was gonna say wats with holy segregation its stupid sum of the rules at the jesus centre are meesed up proper they need to sort it out i understand why rules are there but i dont undrstand sum of the rules they have sum of the people iv asked at the jesus centre who belong to the church have even said sum of the rules are messed up but im not sayin who
any way g2g help me understand please bye bye

hi everyone its my birthday in 2 days awwwww im gettin old im gonna be 15 befor i know it im gonna be 30 lol anyway at the momment im tryin to find god but its hard every time i get close i end up getting distracted. at the end of the day im to young to be thinking of taking drugs and drinking but my friends come round and i end up doin it i dont want that in my life i want to be able to do things that i can be proud of not walkin past people and they point and say look at that drugy i need to sort my self out hopefully god will help me any way gonna go cya in a peace mwahh in a peace bye bye